Dear Tui,
Having a daughter is scary. You are young now, you have just learnt to stand but eventually you'll be big and beautiful. You will be kind and have a smile so pretty people will stare. Your laugh will be infectious and you might have a lisp when you talk-people might say things but its not so bad. Embrace your curves, they are a gift you do not yet know. Your body is one to be loved and admired. You will love yourself and I will make sure of this. We'll dance in our underwear to the Spice Girls. I will try to give all of my body confidence and then some more for the road. You'll be the kind of woman that people will inspire to be like. You'll be book smart, street smart.. Life smart. I hope you make mistakes. I hope you go out with your friends, that you try to sneak out and go to a party. I hope you meet a boy when you're ready. Don't tell your father I said that. I want you to learn things and see stuff. I want you to question everything and ask why? I hope you love to read like I do. We can share books by Jodi Picoult and talk about Grey's Anatomy. By then Grey will be a classic and we can cry and eat popcorn together. I hope you share your fathers love of music, maybe even a bit of his talent too. I really hope you can forgive easily, that you know I'm just human. You'll slam doors and you'll be grounded a few times- I'm sure! You and your brother might get sent to Granny's house and she might feed you chocolate cake for breakfast. You two will keep this a secret from me but its one I know and one that I expected. You'll tell her things about your life and I'll pretend not to know them already because I'm the type of mother who can keep a secret when it is needed. You'll push our boundaries and test our parenting abilities. We have to be ready for the challenge. I hope one day I share with you my stories. I will have so many to tell you. Your dad will too. One day, when you are ready to hear about them I will share with you how we grew up together. How I was young and had no idea what I was doing. You'll see my hair turn grey, my wrinkles will come. I'll be older on the outside but i'll try to remember to keep it young on the inside. When you tell me I do my eyebrow make up too dark I'll try not to beat you up. When you start using mascara and make your eyes look like spiders and foundation that is closer to an oompa loompa's skin tone, I will try REALLY hard not to laugh because I love you. I'll try to make sure you can rap every single word of lose yourself by Eminem just because of the cool cred you can get from this. I will say no a lot. I will try to protect you from things when I know that deep down, you are capable of handling the situation because I taught you well. I'll put my arms out and try to hold your hand in public, deal with it. I might yell out of the car window and beep just for shits and giggles. My mother did it to me-its basically a right of passage. I'll drink wine and make delicious food just like my mother taught me. I will try to be patient. When you take my hand and show me things, when you open up to me or when you want my help i'll be there. When you cry, i'll cry. When a boy hurts you, I will take a shovel and bury that motherf.. Ok, no I will sit on your bed and tell you he is a shithead. We'll laugh and hug it out. When you have your first day at school, your first kiss, your first dance, your first baby if that is what you choose- I will love you still. Always. You have so many people who love you Tui, so much family and friends. You and Noah are so loved. Your dad and I will spend our lives making sure that you both know this. Love always, love big, love forever Your mama S x
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