Being a natural size 12/14/16 most of my adult life, I struggle with any weight gain. Its a personal struggle for so many people. Not just me. So I have an ass, big boobs and some baby-carrying hips...sue me. When I go clothes shopping, I've had to go up a size because of this asset. Pun intended. You get so many conflicting arguments about having the "right" type of body. One end of the scale is bone thin and the other is morbid obesity (think Tess Munster but less glamorous). There is a million and one fitspo pages and even more pages with advice on how to become a lean, mean, fighting machine. I'm tired of the gym selfies. I literally cannot take another. I don't give a flying f*ck about you sweating in all your cracks and crevices. If I tried to do that, my thighs might start a fire. Thats your journey and not mine and thats cool but I like food. When did food become the enemy? Why is it such a crime to eat a greasy, fatty, deliciously sinful meal and feel bad about it?
I've spent so much time in changing rooms, looking in mirrors, looking at my body and thinking "Why can't I have smaller _______"? "If only I could fit into a size ___"? Then you get other peoples comments like "Should you really eat that"? "Omg, you can't have two desserts!" Well, I don't need that kind of negativity in my life. Pass the bloody dessert over here and close your eyes. I like curves. I feel like that is my idea of a woman. Curves. A little confidence goes a long way too but hey.. lets not get crazy. I'm just working with what I've got at the moment. My tool box has a whole lot of curves and a little bit of sass and some really tight jeans that kind of hurt my stomach when I do them up. HA! Personally, I have struggled with this video and with my wedding photos for a bit. I am guilty of body shaming myself and I'm tired of being so critical. I hate the fact that my body changed so much with childbirth. We can't all be Miranda Kerr and have a size 8/flat stomach/abs/perfect hair straight after pushing a watermelon out of our vag's. Carrying children is tough, it takes a toll on everything. Your weight, skin, hair and your body shape. A blob IS a shape with curves but not the IDEAL shape is it..? My stomach stretch marks look like Edward Cullen tried to eat me from the inside.. out. My boobs might have gone a little more south than I had intended, but thats why you invest in push up bra's. The ones with extra zazz. Shot breastfeeding! The best thing for your babes.. Not so much for your Pamela Anderson's. Anyway, I don't have permission to put the whole video on because Tonga is camera shy and he might try to assassinate me if I did, so I made a cheesy sneak peek one until I can twist his arm (not literally mum, don't worry). He doesn't even read this blog he just does the husband thing and likes the post to make me think he did. *Don't even try to be funny with a fat joke, my ego might be of medium build but it isn't made of titanium. Its more of a jelly-like substance. Ha ha. I know a lot of people that can relate to body confidence issues and I'm right there with ya. Right there with my block of creamy milk whittakers chocolate and a large pizza, extra cheese. The kids are sleeping so that is why I'm blogging twice in two days, WOW I know. Until next time, S x **I think everyone knows the story of how Tonga proposed. If you didn't hear it the millionth time I told the story well.. you'll just have to come back and see the full video (pending permission) at a later date.
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Sarah. Mother. Wife. Daughter. Adrenaline auto injectors are not funded in New Zealand, Please sign the petition to change this. Our family is affected by anaphylaxis as are so many others. You can make a difference!
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August 2016
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